Assignment Complete

Today was a killer day. Busy, but killer.

I met the rest of the graduate assistants today at an orientation for the government department. I also found out I was paired with an awesome professor, helping teach European Politics and National Security Policy.

Recently, I was awarded the Mike Watts Fellowship worth $2,000, added to my salary as a G.A., which is significant when you only make $5,000 a semester. I am STOKED! And I guess it's really prestigious, too.

We practiced tonight and I am back in boot camp, hoping to lose some more weight.

This weekend, I will be attending the Community Foundation Ball, getting all dressed up and drinking champagne, dancing and enjoying the company of my coworkers. I am pretty excited about it.

Well, hopefully I will have more time to blog this weekend. It's funny because I have something happen and I think to myself, "I need to blog about that," then I forget. Like tonight, I would love to bitch about how people don't know how to use a four-way stop. It could be because I am from Deming, and we only used to have three stoplights, but it's not difficult! Not at all.....

That's all for now. Peace!

Have I always been this lame?

Answer: No. Not until I had this job/life.

So, I started a new job two weeks ago (shortly after I lost my other one. 2.5 days to be exact). So far, it has been non-stop and I feel like I have worked there for ages. But, already I have begun networking and really stepping outside of my comfort zone to make sure I can get the job done.

It's also amazing how motivating a firm deadline can be. I have written more stories int he two weeks I have worked at the newspaper than I did in six months at the magazine. It's amazing.

All-in-all, I am stoked to be starting a new chapter, away from the "bad" and into the good. School will begin next week, along with a bunch of new adventures and new stress, but I am ready. As ready as I will ever be.

Exhausted.

Example: This morning, when I got out of the shower, I went to use my makeup remover and was puzzled when it stung a little and smelled funny. Don't worry...I grabbed the nailpolish remover.

I hope things die down before I actually damage myself.

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Whirlwind Update for my Three Readers

Hello, all! I have been really bad at posting on my blog lately, but for very good reason:

1. I leave for Denver tomorrow for the Mile High Music Festival with Jessica. I get to see so many of my friends, and I am stoked! Some of my favorite bands will be there: Dave Matthews, O.A.R., Jason Mraz, John Mayer, Colbie Caillat, Ingrid Michaelson, The Roots, Tom Petty, Spoon, Lupe Fiasco, and so many more. My REALLY good friends, Jeff and Claudia, just made the move up there and I get to see where they are and tour around Boulder with them on Friday, then out with some of my sorority sisters and Marky Mark on Friday night. A true vacation.

2. This week, I began a body boot camp, taught by my good friend Anela (who, when I am doing push ups and about to vomit--is not such a good friend, lol). But, it feels great being so active and completely beat after getting out of a session. I have to say, it is a little intimidating at first (and completely mortifying) to see how much I weigh and my BMI, but I know (and have been told by Miss Anela) that taking steps to get healthier is the right thing to do and shows I care. She is so good at this.

3. On July 7, I began a summer course for my master's degree, GOVT 582: Contemporary Political Thought. If you think a summer course, going every day for two hours a day is intense, you haven't seen anything until you take a graduate level one. I go home to two hours of reading and study guide questions every single night. That's FOUR HOURS a day! PLUS travel time. I feel like I live and breathe liberalism, communism, feminism and all the -isms you can imagine!

4. Met a cute boy.

5. I am still plugging away at my freelance project with the bank. I have two stories completely finished and I have hired someone to design it for me. I just have to schedule two more interviews and I am done with the easy part. But seriously, I will be excited when I hand over the files and get a big, fat check with my name on it.

6. I am in the process of filling out Financial Aid forms and trying to get a fellowship to help pay for school. Graduate school is expensive! I just came across a mistake NMSU made in my account (I know, shocking, right?). So, I am currently working on getting that fixed so I don't have to pay $600 for a class I never took.

7. Just finished with the last proof of my magazine and it should be on the shelves the first part of August (which is exciting, being that I have been a magazine editor for 10 months and have yet to see an edition of my own).

8. (AND MOST IMPORTANT) The scooter is amazing. I zip around on that thing all day long and I love it! It takes a tad more planning (like changing shoes or being careful what kind of lunch I pack), but all-in-all is so efficient. It makes me stop and think what I can do without on a daily basis and plan my routes a little better. While I have been driving on busy streets (turns out they aren't as bad as I thought), there has only been one time that I was a little scared--on the small stretch on Main Street between El Paseo and Lohman, where it is really narrow and people zip around those corners like race car drivers. That was touch and go, but I drove all the way to Spitz Park on the other side of town for soccer practice.
*One complaint: When you come to a stop light and would like to make a left turn on a "Left Turn on Green Only," don't hold your breath. I sat through THREE light cycles before I finally broke the law and went through on red. Seriously!
*I look damn hot on my scooter.

I can hear the frogs

So, it's beautiful outside. It's pouring, and there is a flash flood watch in effect for Dona Ana County...and I couldn't be happier.

I love the rain! Even when I am driving home on the scooter and the sprinkles are pelting me like little rocks...it's great!

Just thought I would share how much I love gloomy days like this...and it's supposed to last all weekend!

EXCEPT, my soccer game was canceled today. BOO!

Dearest

Dearest,

It hasn't always been this way. I haven't always been able to see so clearly, so vividly and without blinders.

The last few times we have talked, it isn't because of the reasons I give, it's because I have been trying to tell you how I feel about you and what I have always been too afraid to say. Back then, I was so afraid that being with you would be like not living...not giving myself the opportunity to truly live, meet other people, live the fairy tale. I never thought I could find the man I love in high school. I didn't think I was ready to settle down or be with someone in that capacity, but if I knew then what I know now, I wouldn't have been able to let you go like I did.

I treated you the way no one should be treated. You were my safety blanket, the guy that would always be there...then you weren't and it hurt.

So, what I have been wanting to tell you all these times is that I'm sorry for taking you and us for granted. I wish I could go back and take all of those things back and be with you the way it should have been all along. But now you are with someone who you want to marry and I have to accept that and know we can never be what we once were. And that's harder than anything, but I wish you the best. Just know how I feel.

All my love,
Jenna

Procrastination Revisted

Hello, my name is Jenna Frosch and I am a procrastinator. I don't know why I do it...and it only gets worse and worse. It's not until the final hour that I truly can get down to business and make sure I am doing what I am supposed to do. So, in light of that, I would like to share a website I have discovered called "Great Moments in Procrastination" where you can upload videos of the things you and your coworkers do to procrastinate...and make it fun. This could be incriminating, but a whole lot of fun.

Change can be bad

I have been craving a change. Not a major one, but change nonetheless.

First, I changed my bedroom. Let me rewind: I have been debating this for a while for several reasons. The first is that I was wanting to Feng Shui the room. In Feng Shui, it says that if you want the universe to bring you into a relationship, you must "prepare" your home. Kind of like you can't have your bed face a mirror because your spirit may wake up and be frightened by itself. For a relationship, you must make your home literally ready for one: creating symmetry in your bedroom by having two nightstands, two lamps, etc. The second reason I wanted a change was for change itself.

So last night I changed it around, did the Feng Shui thing, switched my bed to the only other wall it would fit on, then slept on it to see if it worked. The thing is, I hated it. I couldn't watch TV from bed or reach the light and the opposite wall looked funny. So, when I got home from work, I changed it back. What a waste.

Second, I changed my hair, which I am posting a picture of. I don't like it. I look like a fake. Like someone who is a natural brunette is trying to be a blonde and I do mean I look like a poser. My eyes don't pop anymore. And all I wanted was to go back to blonde RIGHT NOW. Apparently I might actually be a brunette.

So maybe change is a bad thing. Who knows? As long as I don't do anything drastic, I am sure I can handle it. Or, I could just go back to my rut.

The Memory

I see him in street signs.

I see him in the house I pass on the way to a friend's house.

I see him in the red truck that makes me look twice.

I see him in the movie we saw together so many years ago.

I see him everywhere: in my dreams, especially there.

I haven't been able to get him off my mind lately. Unfinished business--that's what a friend calls it. Business that ended badly, but now I can't seem to remember why. I only remember the good and now it's too late.